more than enough.

26th November - 29th November.
A short 4-days getaway to Sabah, Malaysia.
Family, relatives and friends.

A little goodbye to sunny island singapore, for now(:

i find myself talking on the phone alot lately, friends call me up to tell me their woes and problems, saying life sucks and blaming fate for every hardship.
just know that i can try my very best to encourage you but not do things out of my control and as much as i love you, please love yourself too.

i just want to be a good friend. nothing more. but sometimes, it seems like i need to be sure of myself first.
my expectations and my beliefs...hmm.

Humanity.

Chemistry revision exam today wasn't that bad as i expected.
Real glad it's over! And for being well-prepared for it(:
thank God for paving a way for me.

went to catch 2012 with jingru thereafter.
WOW. awed beyond words honestly.
WOW, i repeat, it's really a good show!
the graphics and effects are soooo real!
massive destruction, catastrophe and loss of countless lives.
most importantly, great message on selfless sacrifice, courage and love.
many touching scenes of leaving loved ones with loving words, knowing that it will be the last time they will see or even listen to each other speak.
i saw bravery too.
how courage led them to make an effort, to be hopeful for a chance for survival.
how love pushed them on to find a way, at least, to save their loved ones.

and then again, i ask myself what would i do, really, if something like that happens.
would i freak out or would i try to save humanity.
once such happens, time is running out and within minutes, you could be just swept out of your chair while you are blogging, like me now.
it'll be too late to say i love you to your family, too late to make regrets for what you should have done.

i don't know, shouldn't we just treasure every moment as we live, to love one another.
the human race is depleting.
and i mean, a loving human race.

so what is someone thinks you are weird just because you love people too much.
really, so what.
at least, you'll be the one not having regrets.
Best of all, you honour God by loving His people.

God loves you and i love you too!

I feel so... blissful :)
somehow. today.
The world is simply sweeeeeeeet <3
As sweet as a million sweets! & a million jars of sugar!

What is life going to be without daddy, mummy and jiejie?
And without friends?
And everybody i love and care for?

HORRIBLE.

I'm just so so thankful and i promise i will learn to love more each day!

got reminded of this tag line,
Unequal amounts; Equal sacrifices.

the things we do for the people we love can be measured, but the sacrifices we give from our hearts are equal and incomparable.

It's time people learn to appreciate one another! Even if they are physically there or not.
Who knows the person you dislike most will be the one picking you up someday :)

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY RACHEL!!!!!

May all your dreams come trueeee(:

<3

like no other.

But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

-Matthew 7:14-

yesterday was a beautiful day!
our choir went to St. Joseph's Home to perform three Christmas songs!
and to interact with the old folks there(:

now i can understand how terrible it is to stay there despite of the nice environment.
there's practically no life in there.
routined lifestyle.
after eat, sleep. and eat and sleep again.
yeah but the response for our performance was pretty good!
shows how much they yearn for entertainment.

talked to some of the elderly there and showed a couple of rubberband tricks to them.
though i think they are not at all interested, well, but it did make them smile(:

got to catch up with jingru and suyi over dinner thereafter!
and my my, when i am with these two people, all the juicy stuff comes out!
man.
i don't know what to say.. ;)

celebrated rachel's birthday over lunch today at marina square's swensens.
spending time with friends is always such a joy!
and i was told i had a bad hair day today):
because i'm balding.
maybe it's just the hairstyle. hopefully.
i don't want to lose my hair! heh.
should go get a nice haircut soon! :P

lesson learnt.

came across The Purpose Driven Life book by Rick Warren this morning and decided to find some answers to certain concerns i have.
The first thing that caught my eye when i flipped the book to a random page was,
Humilty is not thinking less of youself but thinking of youself less.

what a good start and this is definitely an answer for any question you may have!

it's time for the world to slow down.
because we are slow learners.
the rushing will only cause disappointment and biterness.

i think i should stop expecting too much from people.
i have learnt my lesson.

apples and berries.

my sister got an iphone today and i wasn't greening with envy because i was told that blackberry is a better gadget.
and it seems that my sister disagreed with this statement.
she said that blackberry is more suitable for high professionals and iphone is popular for its cool functions.
whatever it is, if you are planning to change your phone, do consider the nature of the product!

i was just thinking about the branding of phones these days.
what's with the whole fruit thing?
apple, berry... what's next?

=)

gee. it hurts.

mummy brought me to the sinseh this morning to get my backpain problem treated.
and oh my, i so don't wanna go back there again!!!
it's extremely extremely painful!!!!
you can actually hear my bone crack! O.o
like seriously, even my mum who is sitting 3 metres away could hear the loud crack sound so clearly!

=( it's really awful.
and not only did the shifu cracked my right and left back bones. he cracked my neck and shoulder area too.
and gosh, for a moment, i thought my head is dropping off!

the shifu is really a nice and funny guy. fatherly too(:
and what an expert in cracking bones!
so while i was gasping in pain, crying out loud (really i was crying), i was actually laughing too.
i know, sounds funny but that was exactly what happened.

he kept talking so as to keep me distracted from what he's gonna do next, the cracking and twisting of my bones.
yes, and all happened so fast that i could hardly take a breath.
what a quick yet painful experience.

now that the stiffness in my shoulders is loosened, i feel better!
but shifu comically warned that for the next 2 days, my entire back is going to hurt alot.
well, side effect i guess.
after which, if the pain is gone, it means i've more or less recovered!
but if the pain persists, i've gotta go see a bone specialist or something to get an x-ray and proper treatment.
mann, i'd pray hard that it will really heal this time!

and i also got many strong advice on how to take care of my back from now on!
and judging by the stern look of my shifu and the many warnings of how serious the effects of back injuries are, really it's not a laughing matter.
and he told me that salonpas is for old people.
-_-
so i shall stop using that.

yup so people, remember to have a good posture at all times and prevent any falls from the back down.
i don't want you to end up like me.

tomorrow is sunday!
great, i shall just lay in bed and not make too many movements :)

i want to specially thank you guys who have been praying for my back!
i am truly grateful and i just can't wait for the day when i can stop feeling so sorry for myself.
of course, hopefully it's just a problem of my back vein and not the bone!
i will overcome it in any case!

through this, i am not weakened, in fact, i grew stronger in faith.
Thank God.

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

-2 Timothy 1:7-

friday the 13th.

nothing unlucky happened today. yet.
but i don't believe in luck anyway.

a sling and a stone.

Have you heard of the story of David and Goliath?
i really really love this story so much!!!
it's such a true and amazing testimony of courage and faithfulness!

Goliath was an over nine feet tall giant, armed with the finest armor and full of snob that he will emerge as victory in the battle.
nobody dared to fight against him.
and i repeat, he is a giant! seemingly a powerful one!
and the natural reaction would be, oh no! let's run!

but david stood out from the rest.
he saw how everyone was afraid of the giant and said, "I will fight Goliath."
But King Saul said, "You are only a boy. How can you fight Goliath?"
"God will help me," said David.

So Saul gave David his armor and helmet and a sword but david wasn't used to those stuff as they were too heavy, so he returned them to Saul.
Instead, David chose five smooth stones from a stream!
took a sling in his hand and called to Goliath, "You come with a sword and a spear. But I come to you in the name of God. This battle is the Lord's."

The giant came closer to fight David but not giving in, he put a stone in his sling and shot right in Goliath's forehead and knocked him out!
David defeated the giant just by a sling and a stone!
but most importantly, he trusted God and remained faithful!

AMAZING isn't it!

this was exactly what happened today when i was having my oral presentation!
the Goliath in me said to me, "You're afraid. I am going to win you. You weak!"
all the discouraging words came upon me like a flood.
but God got hold of me.
i got reminded time and time again of this beautiful story of David!
and said to myself, "This battle is the Lord's."
repeatedly.
and peace overflowed.

fear was the Goliath.
worry was the Goliath.
anxiety was the Goliath.

i'm just thankful that i got my sling and five smooth stones well prepared today.
and i mean, smooth stones. not rough ones.
why did David pick smooth stones... won't rough stones be a better choice?

i was really confused about this too.
but i learnt that smooth stones were rough once.
but after going through many times of strong currents, rough stones are smoothen!

so i am sharing this because i really feel that no matter how big your Goliath is, a tiny puny peck of courage and faithfulness that is already in you (whether you've unleash it yet or not) will give you strength to press on! ;)

another consolation for today was the collection of overall results!
PROMOTED TO J2!
yeah but at that moment, i really don't know if i should laugh or cry.
my results really ain't good at all.
and i'm not sad, just not very happy. (there's a difference)
heard the little disappointment from mum's voice when i told her my results.
but i do feel her faith for me to do even better(:
so that's definitely a good-enough-comfort.
love you mummy =)

got a chance to share a little about the different kinds of sufferings with lim and long today.
and i will continue with you guys soon kay.
thanks for listening(:

later in the afternoon, rachel and i went to support a hockey match.
the girl's team and michelle!
pretty interesting game actually cause it's my first time to witness an actual hockey match.
but a friendly match nevertheless. so it wasn't that competitive i guess?

had a long day and sadly, my back can't stand the awful strain.
SALONPAS is the cure for now.
can't understand why my mind and body don't go in sync.
oh God, please let healing take place.
only You understand this suffering.

okay! i am off to cook maggi noodles!
for dinner!
haha at such a hour. 9pm.
well, at least for a 6.30pm dinner person like me.
i'm hungry.